So Weird

The other day I was working at Starbucks and went to the back to get some ice to bring out front. As I was scooping the ice out I had a very strange thought. See the ice machine is really deep and new ice is always falling on the top so the ice at the bottom never gets used. I kinda feel sorry for that ice. It may never get to fulfill it's little icy destiny because others are always pushing it down. I know ice does not have feelings and it is only water, and that is why this is so weird to think but I cannot help it and I always feel that way about the ice machine now.

I guess this has something to do with being too sympathetic because it plays out in other areas such as sports. When I watch a game (TV or live) I ALWAYS feel sorry for the loser, even if my team was playing and won! Of course I am happy for my team but I cannot help but thinking that the other team tried hard too. Weird, I know. Guess I am not too competitive. I just want everyone to win and all the ice to be used!!! Is that too much to ask?

Why???

WHY DO GIRLS THINK IT IS OK TO WEAR TRASHY HALLOWEEN COSTUMES?!?! I do not get it! Ok, maybe I do get it but I do not like it. I was working at Starbucks the other night and these two girls came in wearing a "sexy sailor" costume and a "sexy maid" costume. Even I stared! Who wears those things? How can they think it is ok? I guess that is our sex driven world. Those girls just got me all riled up and annoyed at this time of year and I really like Halloween!

Girls just drive me crazy sometimes. They wear trashy clothes to get guys attention. They get guys attention but then they do not like it and they feel like they are treated like an object!!!!! What do they expect?!?! I am not saying women should walk around in business suits because I will be the first to veto that, but there is a way to dress that is respectable that does not show all your goods!

What I don't get about Halloween is that girls just think it is an excuse to wear whatever they want and it is ok because they are in costume. That is not true! I do love Halloween because adults can wear costumes and it is fun but not hooker costumes. Seriously these Starbucks girl's butts were handing out. That is not ok! But I guess it got people to stare at them.

I had someone tell me once that God made girls and guys different but we are compatible in the way we are attracted to each other. Girls like guys to take care of them and make them feel beautiful. Guys like to feel needed and appreciated. This works all fine and dandy until we take advantage of each other. Girls dress trashy because they know guys like it and the girls are given confidence because of their looks. Guys make girls feel beautiful to get what they want from them and then when they are done move on. That is not how God wanted it to be. Girls and guys have power over each other and I even struggle with that sometimes but it is not ok.

All of this to say that if girls would dress modestly they would get the healthy attention they deserve from a guy who they need. Sometimes it may take a little longer to get this but then it is worth it. And after you are married if you want to buy costumes to role play then I say go for it! Sounds fun to me!! I'm thinkin'...Indiana Jones!!!

Friday's Thoughts

These are some of the things on my mind:

I hope that when I am old that I will still be young at heart and outgoing and accepting of ways that are different than mine. I know old people have trouble adjusting to the times but I was with some this week that were awesome and adjusting quite well. I hope I can be like that.

Working in different jobs gives you new appreciations. I vow to never come into any store after it is closed and demand service. I vow to try and always give my server the benefit of the doubt knowing that most mistakes are not theirs or they might actually be having a bad day. I vow to be friendly and thankful. And last, I vow to not look over my server's shoulder to make sure they are doing everything right.

I want a pet.

I think that if California was not so populated and expensive that I could live there. The weather is warm and amazing and there is still so much you can do outside. I know there are fires there now but those happen everywhere.

I cannot figure out what I want to be for Halloween. I do not really have to have a costume but I love dressing up! I need something that can be made out of what I have in my house. I was a cat last year and could do that again but I hate to be a re-costumer. Any good ideas?

Poor Rockies. I hope they win tomorrow!

I need to tell my boss that I am leaving in December. For some reason this is so hard for me. The last job I quit I cried. This is nothing like my last job. Starbucks employees come and go all the time. I just need to get some courage and tell her. If I don't someone else might let it slip!

Somewhere around 47 days until I move. Hooray! Anyone in Colorado need a bed, dresser or exercise bike?

I need to work on my joke telling skills. I have been asked multiple times recently for a joke and I do not know any or cannot remember them. Plus I am fumbly with my words so they always come out wrong. Any good jokes out there?

No wonder I have trouble sleeping. I wish I could just turn my mind off at night and sleep peacefully. I am off to give it a shot!

News Flash

This seems like the way to do blogs lately with so much going on that I don't want to write it all. So these are the summaries of my life lately.

*I traveled 12 hrs. to Abilene for a nice long visit with my Chile team. It was amazing! I miss them so much.

*While in Abilene I met a new teammate and future roomie, Lauren Sutton. Love her!

*Long time coming, I also met Jeremy Tatum. Love him too and he better join our team!

*I was accepted to ACU Graduate School of Theology and received 75% scholarship. I guess studying for the GRE paid off.

*Denver is buzzing with Rocktober (Rockies in the World Series) and it might snow on Sunday!

*My grandpa is slowly getting better and is home now. If he would only eat!

*I am dragging my feet but getting into "God books." My latest is Everything Must Change by Brian McLaren who I also heard speak.

*I am turning slightly "green" and just purchased my first reusable grocery bags. No more plastic bags, yea!

*I am giving mountain biking a try. It is scary and hard but sometimes fun.

*I have two months and counting until I leave Colorado. Some days I cannot wait and other days I am sad.

*My study abroad friend Jenee is coming into town for a week. Super fun times ahead!

*The Office is so funny!

That's all for now folks! : )

Ain't No Reason

This is an amazing song called "Aint No Reason" by Brett Dennen that was introduced to me by my new awesome friend Lauren Sutton. I have trouble listening to song lyrics but these are good. My two favorite lines are "You don't need no reason or a three-piece suit to argue the truth" and "Slavery stitched into the fabric of my clothes." Just listen and think about all of it.

The Message

awesome video made by a guy who just asked people to send in on their hand one thing they wanted to say to the world

Break It Down

I need a break. Luckily my emotional timing is perfect because in less than a week I will get one. On Thursday next week I head to Abilene for a 6 day (2 driving, 4 in Abilene) trip and I am so excited.

First I am excited because I really need a break from work. Things have been changing and I do not like them. They probably would not be a big deal except it is just all piling up at once. Also I am tired of waking up stinkin' early, tired of smelling like coffee and tired of needing caffeine. I love my job but I need a little refresh time.

Second I am excited because I get to see my teammates, meet new teammates and visit with old friends. I have not been to Abilene since I graduated over a year ago. It might be a little weird to go back there but it will be fun to see how things have changed and eat some yummy Texas food. I will be so glad to actually speak with my friends in person and not over the phone or computer anymore. I am looking forward to lots of laughing, deep talking and maybe a little planning. I cannot wait to meet the new possible teammates and new possible roommate and stay with her.

Abilene here I come!!!!

PS- GO ROCKIES!!

New Home

Its a long story that I have gotten good at giving the short version of, but I moved. I moved from one house in Golden to another that is only about 3 blocks down the street. Luckily I do not have too much stuff here so the move was not hard. I am settled in and feeling good here. I seriously is awesome looking because the owner is an architect and he re-did the whole house.

After being in the house about 4 nights my roommate left for about 10 days to take her boyfriend to London. So now this nice house is starting to creep me out. I was ok the first few nights because I was out late and crashed when I got home. But I think I have been watching too much "24" because my imagination is just going wild in the silence. I like to have silence sometimes so I don't feel like I always have to have TV or music but silence is kinda scary right now, not golden. There are also these huge windows in the front of the house that allow me to look outside into the dark a lot...and I always see something!

I hope I never have to live alone. I mean I guess if I am 40 and not married I might look into it but even then I think I will still get scared. I am pretty sure nothing will happen and I know my neighbors but you never know! Terrorists could be after me and break in and kidnap me for ransom!!!! (that's "24" talking) I just hope I sleep good tonight. I am drinking my hot tea now, watching the Rockies score on the computer and listening to soft music. I am tired from my 4:30am shift this morning so all of that combined should knock me out. I hope.